When we got home from Thanksgiving, I opened our local free paper that had the calendar of events for all the towns in our area. There are SO MANY THINGS going on. I got so excited as I took my sharpie and started circling everything. When I actually got my calendar out to commit, I got overwhelmed immediately. I closed the calendar and declared I didn't want to do any of it!! Although I went a wee bit dramatic and I don't really want be a bah humbug, I do want to be mindful of doing the things, but not overdoing the things. I want us to be taking in and enjoying and not running frantically. I want us to be together, not frazzled. I'm tempted to be frazzled already because I don't have our advent calendar stuff down from the attic, nor any of the other Chrsitmasy stuff. It's not when I do things that matters, I plan to do them when I am able without letting that guilt sneak up into my brain. There are so many expectations I set for myself, many unrealistic. Whatever I do will be enough, so long as I keep the peace in my brain, the peace in our home and the true meaning of the season forefront.
December 1st, what did I do? Nothing Christmasy like I intended. I cleaned and set up the 'like new' marketplace couches I got with gift money (thank you!).
They played and I read our morning books.
My brain tries to go to all the things I didn't do, but meant to do. I think the things I did do matter more.