Thoughts



Sometimes readers asked me how I do it all.

Let me tell you.

I don't.

I just cannot keep up. I am barely hanging on.

Each time I use a bowl of tomatoes, I bring two more bowls in.

I meant to use all that milk in the fridge, but I just haven't.  There's nearly five gallons of milk and over a gallon of cream. I spent an entire hour calling around looking for rennent and no one around here carries it.

I'm laying on the couch and there's clutter everywhere.

I've meant to make bread for the last five days and just haven't.

The laundry is heaped.

My husband asked me if I had plans for dinner and I hadn't a clue (which he was very good at helping with this!). 

The garden is not even close to a show garden.

There's more weeds than flowers in the flower beds.

The fix it projects that I meant to do this summer haven't even been started.

I feel guilty because my pets are overdue for the vet.

Our dentist doesn't take our new insurance and we haven't been able to locate a local dentist who will take us.

There's way too much clutter in the kitchen.

And to top it off, my computer broke.

I told you I don't do it all.


I'm not usually someone who has the woes, but I do tonight. The truth is my woes have nothing to do with what I'm complaining about.  It has everything to do with this empty hole in my heart.  Our fresh air kid went back with her family and it feels so lonely here without her.  We grew to love her, she fit in perfectly and I miss that girl terribly.  Our week together was magical and there's always the possibility that we may never see one another again. That little girl is someone who anyone would be lucky to spend time with. She is the sweetest, most caring, thoughtful, kind and patient girl there is.  Just as I was thinking about her, she called to check in.  She just wanted to chat.  Yes, she has a mom who loves her, but she also has a summer family who cannot wait for her return.  Just hearing her voice, my heart smiles again.  No matter what, that girl will always have a piece of my heart.


6 comments:

  1. Awwww...Isn't it wonderful that you can so easily stay in touch with her? And she has pen pals anytime she wants to write an old-fashioned letter. I'll bet she's missing y'all just as much as you're missing her.

    One thing at a time girl...

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  2. The Maine Brewing Supply in Portland carries rennet, I have purchased it more than once! (I know that's only a small aspect of this post, but perhaps it will be of use

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  3. The Maine Brewing Supply in Portland carries rennet, I have purchased it more than once! (I know that's only a small aspect of this post, but perhaps it will be of use

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  4. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts! So nice that she will be checking in until you are together again!

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  5. Just wanted to thank you for being so honest. It is refreshing to know that there's another homesteading Mama out there who isn't perfect! Hang in there! Just take a breath and remember people above projects...some great advice I received. Love your life choices and those heartwarming babes you have!

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  6. Ah that's nice! Maybe you can be penpals until next summer? Maybe send her some stationary and stamps, old school :)

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