Take One here.
Take One here.
Goodness, here we are at take four. The garden, oh that garden. You know what I'm growing? Weeds, that's what.
Let me tell you what's frustrating about gardening for me.
1) I want to have a picture perfect garden. I want no weeds, a cute little fence, my raspberry hedge just so, more raised stone beds, a gardening shed with perennials. I want my soil to be fantastic and not the mess it is right now. I want beautiful mulch. And I want to grow enough to share with everyone. There's a lot that I want. But, the truth of the matter is it's just me taking care of this garden. And I just cannot do it all.
2) I like success. I feel triumphant when I know how to do something and defeated when I fail. I have grown peas a number of years successfully. Only the deer have come and dined on every.single.pea plant. They nibbled the tops off, which of course ruined the entire thing. They also came and ate 14 of my cauliflower plants. Those are the cauliflower plants I started in March. Cauliflower and peas are two vegetables I KNOW how to grow, and yet I failed. And because of said weeds, I really stink at growing carrots and leafy greens this year. I've grown them successfully before, sure. But there's problems now. Because, well, you need to weed those. I know how to grow those, but I'm not getting in there as fast as the weeds.
Goodness, this happens every year, this feeling of defeat.
I need to remind myself of why I am gardening. Am I gardening for show garden purposes? Clearly not. I'm gardening to feed my family. I could have a smaller garden that is more manageable and would look prettier, but then I'd have less for my family. Last year my preserved herbs lasted me all year and my frozen veggies lasted until March. There is still a plethora of food coming our way from said garden. I just need to be patient.
I need to remind myself of my priorities. I try to do everything in moderation, which, as life has it, includes gardening. I haven't spent my entire evenings gardening, but I get out there when possible. My kids still eat homemade meals 3x a day. I have been getting a few more runs in lately. I made a sweet little gift for Miss Audra's 2nd birthday. Two sweet flour girl dresses are hung in my kitchen now. I've read to my kids daily. I've pushed them on the swings and I've gone down the slide with them. I skipped weeding in favor of family beach time. Moderation.
I need to remind myself that I'm doing okay. Things are growing and my kids are thriving. Not counting what we consumed out there, I have brought 17 pounds of produce into the house thus far. So it's not a failure. There will always be another weed, but there won't always be two little kids asking for one more book.
And so, I will read that one more book, I will let the weeds grow. And I will celebrate all that is growing instead of wallowing in what is not.
And here's the garden as of now.