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Garden, oh garden, you bring about such range of emotions for me.
I go out there and want to feel success. But instead, all I feel is inadequate. All I see is weeds, weeds and more weeds. In hindsight, I think we should have bought the smaller rototiller so I could handle it. I wish I dragged my husband out there to rototill. I wish I made more time for weeding. I wish I spaced this better. I wish I tended this better. I wish I started this earlier. I wish I planted more of that. I wish I kept better tabs of little feet in the garden. I wish these weeds were gone. I wish I had a show garden.
The fact is, I don't have a show garden. Not even close to it. It is not pretty, well maintained or impressive. It's far from what I wanted. I want to do well at that which I set out to do, it's so easy for me to feel defeated in that garden space.
I don't know why I concentrate on the negative when I enter that space, for there's far more positive.
I bought a scale this year, thus far, we have harvested, consumed or preserved 111 pounds of our own produce. Each meal now, 3x a day, has something from the garden. Home grown, fresh picked=beyond delicious.
And my kids know where their food comes from.
They can identify the plants. They know when to pick and how to pick. They carry the produce in.
They get out their little kid safe knives and chop.
They know these foods are good for their body and they actually eat it.
The other day, I had a salad with kale, collard greens, green onion, peas, cherry tomatoes and cucumbers....and my kids ate the whole thing. I'm bringing in food regularly and we have enough to eat and we've even had a little extra to share.
I've been avoiding a gardening post for a whole month now, as it's not really something I want to share in the state it's in. But, I'm glad I did, for the last paragraph reminds me that even though the journey getting this produce hasn't resulted in anything show worthy in an aesthetic manner, but it has produced something award worthy in the form of the knowledge in my kids' little noggins.
And flowers, how can I forget those? So many perennials and my first go around with dahlias and gladiolas. Always a fresh bouquet around this place. I guess there's more to celebrate right there.
Bottom line, message to self-You're doing fine. Just fine. Yes, your garden might not be perfect, but you read 12 books to your kids yesterday, played 7 rounds of 'going on a bear hunt', dressed baby dolls and hitched tractors to their wagons. There's plenty of time for a show garden, but just right now to be the best mama to a 2 and 3 year old. Keep on keeping on. You can't give up now. The elderberries will be ripening anyday now.